A Melancholy Christmas
Would anybody disagree with me if I said that this Christmas season has passed so quickly? This time last year I was writing a similar post about just how fast Christmas seems to come and go now that I'm an adult. This year, I'm still marveling at the speed of the holiday, but I'm also feeling melancholy. I'm at an in-between stage in my life I think. Christmases are so different now than they were when I was a child. I'm an adult now, so I wouldn't expect everything to be the same. However, I don't yet have children to pass on the memories and the traditions that I remember. This could be the reason for the tug at my heart I'm feeling this season. Or is it the fact that I haven't seen my family in a long time? It's been a year since seeing my mom, about 3 years since seeing my sisters and their children, and even longer since I've visited my dad. I can't even remember the last time I spent a Christmas with any of my family. Though I miss them dearly, I wouldn't feel right not spending Christmas with my fiance and his mom. That's my new tradition. That's my life as it is now. I don't have a clever ending for this post...I'm feeling a wave of sleepiness wash over me and I'm desperately wanting to get to bed all of a sudden. The Christmas tree is lit as I prepare to sign off for the night, not entirely decorated yet, but still a bright beacon of Christmas to remind me that life goes on no matter how much things and/or people change.
1 comments:
you shouldn't be melancholy. you're spending your holiday with people that make you happy. yes, there are other people missing from your group but that's okay. new beginnings, new traditions. :)
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